‘I am but waiting for you’

Earlier this summer, I turned on the “On this day” feature on Facebook. If you’re not familiar with it, it shows you your posts and interactions from the same date every year that you’ve been on Facebook. Around Father’s Day, I seriously considered turning off the feature, because that’s when the bad news started appearing […]

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Wish lists and tough girls

Wishin’ and hopin’ After finding that email yesterday, I couldn’t resist reading a few more. This one really made me laugh: “Could you please send me your wish lists? Unless of course you want me to randomly pick things out for you? Send it quickly, ok? “Yes, somehow I deleted it. I don’t deny it. […]

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‘Not this chick’

I went looking in my email for an address today, and this old email from my mom turned up in the search results. She sent it to me on May 30, 2007, when I was living in China. Hi sweetie, How are you doing? Sorry I haven’t gotten to talk to you much lately. I’ll […]

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Our worst day

My nephew and niece, Lane and Emma, stayed the night with us a few weekends ago. The next morning, the three of us were out to visit the Halloween store and to go to some friends’ house to decorate pumpkins. They ask me such adorably precocious questions sometimes when it’s just us. I never know […]

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Beautiful hands

My parents celebrated 40 years of marriage on Aug. 1, 2009. Though I thought they should go on a romantic date – just the two of them – they insisted they would be delighted if I went with them to dinner. The day before, as a small gift, I gave Mom a manicure and pedicure. […]

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Matt (my husband) is on a fishing trip today with his dad. He provides so much support for me, emotionally and psychologically, that I get very depressed when he is away. I hate to admit it, because I don’t want him to feel guilty for going and doing fun things or important things like weekends […]

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Let me explain myself

Since starting this blog, several concerned friends and family members have commented or contacted me. See, they thought I was doing OK, for the most part. I understand their confusion. Let me explain myself. Like many, many other people experiencing grief, I appear to be doing OK. That’s because I am doing OK, generally. I’m […]

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